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Birds in the Night

by benjamin cissner (& the apologies)

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1.
Division 02:40
Division --------- I don't know what you're doing But you're doing it all over me The signals that you're sending Spare me details of catch and release Or I'm cutting you off at the knees With your smart mouth and agenda We've all figured what you're trying to prove You should know, patience has limits But dandy Sherlock, you're without a clue Man they've already forgotten you All this fine talk of forgiveness Well, you know it really ain't my scene Rather lay back and forget it It already seems like a dream How did we ever mean to be so mean?
2.
Fifty/One Fifty ---------------- Unsure of what has passed An anxious vacancy is set Word wise enough to know This errant naïf has rendered mine inept And I don't know what I've left Thoughts writhing in the air The frequencies and rhythms numb No sober word nor sound Escape suppressed, this mortal drum And I don't know if I could Smiting bone instead of wood In between Something's missing Absence of words deflect mine Blood is chilled Drained of expectation Left in passive desperation To resign In your womb What proteins have conspired (Woe found release) Anomic Our recklessness reviled (Gave birth to a beast) A barren glimpse Of faltering desire. (Of fear and unease) To span resentment's breach The pained aside, the steely glare Is this paranoid dream of soft assault Beyond repair? And I wonder if you care I pray that you still care
3.
Hybris 03:14
Hybris -------- Come out, come out End this senseless plight Let sorrows fall And fade with morning's light Still haunted by the hanged man Undaunted by the fool Caught wistfully as torn desire And ultimatum duel But which one did you save And which one did you cast away (And lay to waste)? What weary thoughts arouse your tongue Both graceful and profane A whispered faith on trembling lips Lust coursing through your veins And every time you came You couldn't bear to speak my name (But returned the same).
4.
Chippy's Lament -------------------- Hazardous and dark, this bitter cold Unshackled to endure this time abroad Pray your master carpenter bestow Protection of his quarters down below Quarreling of the gods compel you Where the water meets the wind Where Aeolus slights Poseidon There your odyssey begins Reluctant executioner pursues Captain's orders, marching two by two Over cries of protest from the crew Nothing for a castaway to do Trembling thunderous and mighty Moans Endurance from within Splintered over ice and lichen Burying your last defense Hazardous and dark, this bitter cold Unshackled to endure this time abroad Pray your master carpenter bestow Protection from the forces down below.
5.
Flood 02:52
Flood ------- When the river wears the levee down And we've got to run to higher ground When fear and flood are all around And it feels like we won't be for long When the waters well up and the floodgates give way And the tears all but drown what you're trying to say When your quivering voice is submerged in dismay And it seems you can't suffer the storm Waters may rise, hard rains may fall And wash all the blame from your hands Well after the storm, when fear changes form You'll find your feet buried in sand It's the kiss on the lips of infatuous tongues It's the taste of the mouth stealing breath from your lungs It's that moment in peril, as time lingers long It's the sound of naïvete's song So let tears of the surf salt your eyelids with mist As the tides take you further into the abyss For solace and heartache shall soon be dismissed By an ocean, indifferent and strong. Waters may rise, hard rains may fall And wash all the blame from our hands But after the storm, when fear changes form We'll find ourselves buried in sand.
6.
Nothing to Do But to Wait ----------------------------- Pin my arms until I break Pin my innocence away Take my hand, take my spine End my body for the time In your cold, estranged embrace Obscuring memory and space Though I don't want you, I don't want to let you go ------- While the verses may sway you from focus As the hours take root in your brain Done living this paperback novel Last time was the last time you claim When you feel like you grow five years older Every time the telephone rings The small of your back has grown calloused And the back of your shirts have grown stained When you can't catch your breath in the morning Never losing that smell of decay And you're hearing the voices speak softly Though you can't understand what they say Caught up on this weird roller coaster And pinned down to a mattress and frame Surrender yourself to this bad dream You're already too gone to blame Now it's fading off in the periphery Though your eyes are still swimming in haze And it takes all of your concentration To pretend you can alter their gaze Time to roll off of your sorer shoulder Let the other one carry the weight Just let yourself study the woodgrain For there's nothing to do but to wait.
7.
Follow You Down -------------------- Chase your wet dream across town It's a sick race you run Singing follow me down But she's already won When your feet hit the ground Can you tell what's been done Just one shot in the dark And you fumbled it, son And that cupid shot back To the heart, worthless arrow In a silent attack Caught off the straight and narrow Yeah, you wanted her back And it rings through the air But there's nobody there There's nobody there On your back On the floorboards you lie Saint Sebastian's arm strains To cover your eyes Black stains on a desktop In answer to why But responsible minds have stopped asking Why that cupid shot back To the heart, worthless arrow And that panic attack Cuts deep into the marrow And why you needed her back Her perfume still in the air But there's nobody there There's nobody there To follow you down To follow you down To follow you down
8.
Bad Mark 03:33
Bad Mark ----------- Circadian rhythms And the unbridled id Invite crippling visions Best keep your bad mark hid To resuscitate nothings In a heart drained and bled Screaming blackest at nighttime Your bad mark's made its bed Choked whispers acquiesce To love's joyous refrain But those whispers find a voice Catch the wind and abstain Now unfettered panic Both stammered and sped Shatters hope like fine crystal Your bad mark struck it dead. Choked whispers acquiesce to lust's joyous deceit But those whispers find their voice Catch the wind and retreat Your whispers, they give way To love's tender refrain But when whispers turn to tears Find the earth and abstain.
9.
Alms 02:32
Alms ------ Now I know what you mean to conceal Ousting every fate that you'd feel Gather alms in the dark before your curtain call Turn your eyes, turn your back, turn away from them all In a passive and meaningless ruse Until they stop bothering you. It's pointless to invest much at all In a hopeless diversion determined to fall For to suffer this sorrow again like before Takes your name, takes your form, takes your song from my door This grift leaves a spiritual bruise A fading impression of you So let the demons well up in a storm A prophetic burden Painstakingly formed In your eyes, hollow set In a cavernous chest Lies a broken reminder of what you do best In a skin thin from scorn and abuse It's heartbreaking thinking of you.
10.
Ghost ------- Waiting for the wound to heal For flesh to scab, humours congeal For scars to seal and then conform And damaged nerve to burn, reborn I swore the gash was half its size And didn't dream to cauterize For once occurred but to regress And fall in step with idleness And longing for a gentle touch I've wanted it so much. Wanted you so much. These lustful whims call out a dare A cry for chest and lungs to tear And stricken, quickly rise for air But will not find it anywhere. Will not find you anywhere. For blood and brain but host This parasitic ghost. ********************* Miami ------- These words alone hold no significance Empty echoes of impermanence A fading vessel's transient tone But now: So crisp, so clear, so do not hesitate To grasp this cold lucidity To savor hunger pangs anew From what is shown, one can not speculate If it arrives to simply devastate To smother embers trying to light aflame These fragments hint at being infinite But without a stream, a compromise: They die, withered upon the vine. This devil's ruse, this sheer absurdity To glimpse the all, in its futility A trick of love, of loss, of future days unknown A restless mind finds sport in fantasy There it whispers boredom's lies to me Another signifier heeds sensation's call A face, a gaze, a form, an awkward gait Too stark, too unaware to hesitate Enthusiastically you beam to some new sound.
11.
Ballad of a Prawn -------------------- I've got blood stains on my shoulder From a quick, hard blow to the ear A firmly clasped shard of glass Has found a new home in there And I think it should be quite clear There are things I was not meant to hear. I've got scars up and down my forearm Beneath them lie long shafts of steel For I ventured too close as they pointed the hose Doc said it's the worst break in years Though the water's the worst of my fears 'Twas the gravity brought me to tears Now my sockets are sore, relieved of their orbs I've been blessed by not seeing their fate Though I cannot recall what's become of them all For I opened the lids up too late I just figured some shut-eye'd be great Who'd foresee this unfortunate state So tonight I will rest in my hospital dorm Dreaming someday I'll take my revenge On these colorful ghosts clad in corsets and hose Painted faces and dangly fringe I'll just lay here and plot my defense If my fortune and flesh ever mend If they don't, then I guess I'll pretend I'm not certain if phantoms have friends.

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released April 22, 2016

Benjamin Cissner: Vocals, Guitars, Rhodes, Combo Organ, Melodica
Vince Delgado: Electric and Upright Basses
Caleb Dawson: Drums and Percussion

Backing Vocals: Matthew Melton, Doris Melton, Brendan Bond, Carlton Bostock, Vince Delgado, Benjamin Cissner

Engineered by Matthew Melton at Fuzz City
Produced by Benjamin Cissner and Matthew Melton

Mixed by John Michael Landon at Estuary Recording

Mastered by Carl Saff at Saff Mastering

Cover Art by Amanda Gehin

Owl logo by Jay Campbell

Graphic design by Phillip Niemeyer

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